It’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve written. I have delayed because I wanted to bring you better news. I know what Dr. YeKen thought and why he advised starting this diary but I’m not sure it’s working. I have been deluged with thoughts of Outlander. It’s now completely out of control. I go to sleep thinking of Outlander, wake up in the middle of the night thinking about Outlander and then again in the morning! There is no relief from Outlander, Outlander, Outlander!!! I do believe my Droughtlander Delusional Disorder (DDD) is getting much worse. Sometimes, I feel l need to run like Forest Gump and just keep on running.
I have, in fact, tried banging my head against the wall to dislodge the wicked ramblings in my brain which jump from one Outlander thing to another Outlander thing; however, that only resulted in a hole – not in my head but the wall. I had to quickly repair that before my husband saw it.
I have another confession to make, Dear Diary. When I took my shower this morning, I was thinking about Season 4 and what we might get to see if this excruitiating Droughtlander ever ends. Just yesterday, I read the passage with Jamie & Claire on that glorious rock (Chapter 2, Drums of Autumn). Well, I became so distracted by these thoughts that I washed my face…with shampoo! So driven to distraction was I that I would never have realized my error except that my eyes immediately began to sting like bloody you-know-what.
I couldn’t open them to even see what I had done. It took 10 minutes of rinsing my eyes until I was finally able to open them. Fearing that I had used the liquid Soft Scrub that I keep in my shower, I was much relieved to discover it was only the shampoo. However, I was reminded of my lapse back into DDD all day long by red, stinging and watering eyes.
I did not share this incident with my husband. I told him that I was suffering from pollen. Thank God, I had a believable excuse. If I had told him the truth, he would be calling Dr. YeKen immediately.
Although this experiment of writing down my struggles with DDD may not be working, it is a relief to be able to confess my failures. I was so embarrassed after the shampoo incident. Hopefully, the remembrance of my suffering will keep me out of harm’s way for a while. I can at least be hopeful.
P.S. Oh, I wanted to report back to you on Dr. YeKen as I had promised last time. During my appointment last week with the good doctor, he answered a phone call and introduced himself as Dr. Fraser. Unfortunately, I believe he is slipping rapidly into the abyss as well.Until next time…
I Remain An Obsessed Fan,
Dear Beth’s Diary,
I fear I, too, am obsessed! ?
Oh Theresa! It is so good to hear that I am not alone. I wish you the best as you fight this terrible disorder!
Beth, you definitely help me cope with my DDD. I am currently reading Echo and watching S3 DVD Collector edition. I worry that I think too much about Outlander, but then I say: “how much is too much?”
I am seriously thinking about reading Outlander all over again, while I wait patiently for the Droughtlander to end.
Thank you for keeping me entertained while I wait!
PS, If you haven’t seen the deleted scenes of Episode 303, I tell you, the scene of young LJG at Culloden was worth keeping. At least we got to watch it.
It is a very sad situation, Eugenia. I completed DOA last week for the second time and started re-reading it again on Sunday. A sad, sad state of affairs, indeed! Now, you tell me about the deleted scenes with young LJG. I have not received my DVD yet and will not sleep the entire night thinking about it! LOL!!!
I enjoy so much reading your diary Beth, especially love the humor! Thank you for the smiles. 🙂
PS: hopefully the incidents described are only from your imagination… 😉
Anne Marie, thank you for reading my about my crazy Droughtlander life! And, actually, no, I did wash my face with shampoo! It’s sad. LOL!!!
Beth – one must be careful with distractions. I once was about to put eye drops in my eye before heading off to babysit the grandsons. Unfortunately I gabbed the bottle of nail glue- amazing how much alike they look too – and put a drop of that in the first eye before I realized what I had done. Yup, trip to the ED. Dr. said if it was crazy glue I could have just flushed with water – who knew. But alas mine was not. I had one liter of saline plus something run though my eye attached with a horrible contraption, then eye covered in gauze for a day. Basically, I burnt my eyeball. Stung for days but all was fine eventually. Now I look at bottles twice before using!!!!
Oh my gosh, Judy! I thought it was pretty sad that I washed my face with shampoo! You’ve bested me (or worsted me) on that one! Glad you’re ok!
Dear Beth, No my dear, you are far from alone! I found you while Googling N.Carolina and Outlander thinking that there might possibly be someone out that way with some Outlander-land, or something, that I could visit when I make a trip to Charlotte to visit my daughter. So far, I don’t know…but I’ll let you know if I find anything. ?
I’m on book #8, “Written In My Own Heart’s Blood”, I still have about 150 more pages to go but I can already feel the depression slipping in like….well I was going to make a comparison to something Claire did in one of the books, but don’t want to spoil it for you, since it sounds like I’m farther along in the books (?)? Anyway, even though I do have the Lord John books to fall back on, they just aren’t the same! (I’ve read one LJG book) But now that I’ve found your blog I’m hoping I can share my misery of no new Outlander novels and be somewhat comforted. Jesus H. Roosevelt Christ! I sure hope Diana Gaboldon finishes #9 soon!
Take care, I’m rooting for you!
Your whole comment made me laugh out loud!!! Loved it! So glad I am not alone! Maybe you should set up an appointment with Dr. YeKen too!!! LOL!!!